Like the title of this post states, we did not plan on having another baby (we were open to adopting an older child in the future, but did not plan on starting all the way from the beginning again!). In fact, I felt like shouting from the roof tops when Josiah turned 3 that we were finished with the baby and toddler stage! I love my children, but the pregnancy/infant/toddler stage is very difficult for me. Anyone who truly knows me, knows I have never been good or natural with young children! I am reading a book right now called The Color of Grace by Bethany Haley Williams in which she talks about the amazing therapy and rehabilitative care she and her organization Exile International are giving to former children of war in Africa. She is doing the exact thing I set out to do when I decided to get extra schooling for my counseling masters 8 years ago. But, a baby puts most plans I would have in moving towards that calling on hold. (Side note: her organization is doing amazing things to help former children of war and I recommend checking out her website to see how you can be involved: www.exileinternational.org). Nonetheless, like I said earlier, God is the ultimate Authority on life. He is the Author of life and if He has given us this child as a gift, for however long He has the days of our child to be, then I trust He will give us strength and wisdom for this calling. In her book, Williams quotes Mother Theresa as saying, "I never look at the masses as my responsibility. I look at the individual. I can love only one person at a time. I can feed only one person at a time. One. One. One." As I read those words, thousands of miles away from the life saving work she did in India and from these amazing surviving and courageous children in Africa, it encouraged my heart to know that loving this baby is my responsibility. To speak up for him or her. But what about the babies who have no one to speak up for them? I hope our baby's heartbeat speaks for them too. I hope that even now, God's different plan for our family than we had will speak life and light into this world. Please consider the truth that no one needs that beating heart more than the baby in which it resides, just like the heart I beautifully saw beating today on our baby's 9 week ultrasound.
Friends, if you are pregnant and contemplating having an abortion (or know someone who is), please contact your local pregnancy care center (we have CareNet here in Frederick, MD) or me or a trusted friend. Every day I am grateful that our precious, rambunctious, mischievous little boy Josiah's birth mother chose life for him. If you have had an abortion and struggle with that decision, I hope these words do not feel condemning to you. I hope and pray that you know that there is hope, redemption, and healing found at the foot of the cross of Jesus Christ.
Josiah is wearing Isaac's 'gege' shirt. 'Gege' means 'big brother' in Chinese. :) What a blessing that this little boy gets to be a little brother and a big brother!
Okay, so I know ultrasounds can be hard to decipher, but that is our littlest one in the middle of the oval. His/her head is to the right. The baby is looking right at the camera (did not pick up this skill from his/her big sister!) and his/her body is to the left, with arms out at the sides. It never gets old seeing and hearing that little, precious heartbeat. Amazing.